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Hmmm.. Well I was talking to Omar last night and he wants to go straight and when he grows up he wants a family, and he says he can't have that with a guy, well today I was talking to him and tellin him how fkn stupid he is to force himself to be something he's not! Welli was telling him he could still have a family with a guy there's lots of other options well he listened and I hope he realizes that now. Well later on today he asked me out and I guess he doesn't listen to me cuzz if he did he would remember our conversation about how I didn't wanna hurt him that's why I didn't wanna date him again cuzz I am still i'n love with Jacob but honestly I just don't know anymore cuzz I don't feel the same about him anymore :( like I still love him and all just not as much as I did and like how he said he wants to come and see me I think what if I fall head over heels for him again and I just couldn't do that to Omar so I think it's best if I stay single for now and wait and see what happens I'm just gonna go with the flow and focus on school.. That's pretty much all I can do for now..